know then that God has put me in the wrong and closed his net about me. 7 Behold, I cry out, ‘Violence!’ but I am not answered; I call for help, but there is no justice. ESV Job 19:6-7
Yesterday evening I had the privilege of having dinner with the residents of Project Echo. I love these opportunities as I always learn so much from the residents. One lady in particular shared her story with me and confided she had great anger at God because He had taken her baby’s father shortly before birth, leaving her to raise her son as a single mother. She worked hard, tried to make ends meet, and was currently homeless and without a vehicle. She wanted to know why God allowed such struggles into her life, but she was afraid to ask Him because she was so angry with Him.
Have you ever wanted to ask God something, but felt too angry to do so? Perhaps you really blame God for something He did, and it’s created a wall between the two of you. Part of you wants to resolve that tension with God, but the other part of you feels you can’t because of your high degree of anger. If you feel that way, let me remind you of two things. First, you aren’t alone. Job felt very much the same way. God allowed some horrendous things in Job’s life and Job spent an incredibly difficult season asking God to explain Himself. For a season, God remained silent, and Job’s pain multiplied. David also cried out in frustration to God. The prophets struggled as well. Even Jesus on the cross cried out “My God, why have you forsaken me.” Truly, you are not alone. Secondly, know that God sees your heart. Knowing this should set you free to talk with God rather than condemn you. For some reason, when we are angry at God, we don’t talk to Him (honestly at least), because we feel it’s wrong to express our anger toward Him. On one level that’s ridiculous. He already knows you are angry with Him. You may as well be honest with Him. I think He often stays silent until we are honest with Him. It’s what He’s seeking all along.
If (or a friend) struggles with anger toward God, know you aren’t alone. Cry out to Him. Express your anger. He can take it. Be honest with God, and I think you will find that He is honest with you. The first step to hearing God is crying out to Him ourselves in total honesty. May you do that today.